my new album

hello <3 so i released a new album on march 17, 2025 called, "is this really goodbye forever?" and it's my third self released album now live on spotify, apple music, youtube, and everywhere else..? sonically it's a lot more similar to my first album i think, "immunity" which i released back in 2021 after leaving my ex boyfriend in denver during covid. this album deals with my first true love and the heartbreak that's come with it. so maybe something with making music about heartbreak and

grief and pain makes me create different sounds than when i'm making music about being a "trendsetter" and liking "muy muy grande men" haha.

The visuals for this album transform from darkness to light just as i have been

transforming out of the darkness in my personal life. each song is a chronological

order of my desperation, love, longing, grief, denial, anger, confusion, betrayal, pain

acceptance, healing, and ultimately transformation.

it took me over two years to finish writing, recording, and producing this album and

filming these videos alongside the help of some friends and my sister.

I actually wrote my song, "be a man" back in 2013 when him and i parted as i went to college and he went to the marines ( the man who this album is all about).

it was then that i really started experimenting with garageband on my laptop

isolating myself in my dormroom when paintings weren't cutting it anymore.

i just started literally needing to speak what was on my mind and how i felt and

when he resurfaced in my life recently it felt important to finish and release that song for this album; almost as if this experience had to happen for me to finish this album